I had a tough day yesterday. An unexpected, unsettling exchange with someone I had considered a friend took the wind out of my sails and triggered a whole emotional avalanche, showing me I clearly have a lot of healing left to do. I wish I’d been able to say, “Oh, I see, good luck with that,” and go about my day. You know, let their issue just be their issue. But I didn’t do that. After the exchange was over, I made it my issue. I made assumptions and internalized the worst of them. I ugly cried, literally curling up in a ball and metaphorically sobbing my brains out. I felt such a tangled mess of feelings trying to take center stage: anger, loneliness, indignation, regret, humiliation, exhaustion, shame, defensiveness, defeat. I cringe at the familiarity of it all. I eventually picked myself up off the floor and washed my face. I did some yoga. I practiced forgiveness. I imagined how I would comfort a best friend in the same situation. I tried to keep moving. I cleaned the bathroom counters, vacuumed the floor. I studied my Vision Board through swollen eyes. I cried some more. They say healing is not linear but I think as long as you don’t give up, you’re on the right track. At least that’s what I keep telling myself. You are an investment worth making. A Soul Fitness Coaching plan might just be your next right move.
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